Wedding is...everywhere...

Salam.

Dis few weeks is gonna full of weddings... kind of stress me out..haha!
Mas' wedding, Afzan's wedding, Ila's wedding, and everyone's wedding...
The most stress part is that..questions from my mama and abah..
"anak abah ni bila lagi nak kawin ni?"
" terima jela calon mama ngan abah, nak?"
and i goes..
"ala, ma..rilek la dulu..nak keje dulu..lgpun bukan nye tua sgt..baru 25tahun.."
" x mboh la kawin ngan org x kenal...ish.."
and mama said..
" x payah la mengharap org tu.."
and i ..
" mana ada.."

Haha.. dats a few lines that we always talked about... maklumlah.. anak sulung,
mestila mak ayah nak suruh kawin cepat..
tapi..
bab-bab kawin ni bukn leh main2... xkn nk terima je org yg ntah sesuai ke x ngan kita...
at least biar la kenal hati budi dulu..
but.. after seeing a fren's nikah night, a strange feeling came..
make me wonder what i'm gonna be like during my wedding?
but 1 thing for sure..i'll cry.

Matangkah kita (~aku~) ?

Soalan ni susah nak jawab kan? Ada masanya kita bersikap mcm budak tak cukup umur, tp adakalanya kita berfikir mcm org tua.. betapa kematangan itu tak boleh diukur dengan umur semata-mata...but, again, matangkah diri kita sekarang ni? Ask urself and i think u'll never find the answer...atau yg lebih tepat, kita sebenarnya takut menjadi matang... sebab apabila kita merasa diri kita matang, maka bermakna kita sudah bersedia memikul tanggungjawab.. bersedia untuk menjawab bagi setiap tindakan kita, baik atau buruk, dan bersedia menanggung risiko akibat perbuatan kita.. for me, i'm not (very) ready to be 'matang'... still have lots of things to experience and to learn, maybe in the coming days (or maybe years), i will...and who knows, maybe tomorrow...(but thats too soon, though~)

In the end, it'll get better in time...