bad sign

salam.

i am here. it's almost everytime i am here, it means i'm not in a good mood. yes. i am not.
have been feeling miserable since friday. i am not quite sure why. but i am feeling sad. angry.
also, i keep waking up in the middle of the night. and starts thinking. bad habit. (please don't mind the grammar. i'm not in the mood for a beautiful sentence with the correct grammar. huh )
just now, i snapped at my ex-bf (now a fren), without solid reasons. im sure he is in shock as well as i am. i cant cry. don't know what to be cried about. i cant complaint. don't have anyone who is willing to hear my crap.
for once, i just want everything to fall in it's place. not scattered and shattered. just like my life now. everything that i did seems wrong.
i should stop here. before i turn into a crappy-aimi. just dont read this if u feel annoyed with me. ok. now im sarcactic. this is a very very bad sign. bad. very.

the fiftieth day....

Assalamualaikum, dear blog.

Sorry for not updating for quite a while. Otak dan sendi2 tangan dah berkarat nak menulis & menaip. Tapi, arini terasa nak update. Terasa nak buat impromptu poem ari jumaat ni.

Title: Here And Nowhere.

Today i woke up and i smiled,
Brushed my teeth and i prayed,
Took my bath and i clothed myself,
Ate my breakfast and my morning coffee.

Today they say is a new day,
Instead just a new date,
Today i am still here,
Just like yesterday, and the day before.

Maybe i am a coward,
For not wanting what everyone wants,
I might be a fool,
For always playing cool.

I found joy, nowhere,
I seek love, but nowhere to be found,
I hide my feelings, here in my heart,
And I am still here, struggling to live.

You might not understand,
Why i wrote this,
But, you would probably know,
The reason behind this fear.

I am here, but nowhere near.

by: Aimi R. (15th April 2011, 1.21 pm)