Assalamualaikum...
hai ! it has been too long since i last posted here, kan? hehe..sorry. my bad. so, a few updates on my current life right now :
1. I has been transferred to hospital. yeay! and i am so loving it here. despite the heavy workloads and the 24-hours working shift.
2. i have found someone. basically, he came and find me. :) he and his family came to our house to kenal-kenal. so, hopefully it all will went well. amin. pray for me!
thats the two things thats keeping me from updating this blog. will try my best to write here. since i love writing and i love making poems. rindunya nak buat poems. wait.... :))
so, happy december to all of you that read this. ntah2 xde orang bace pon. hahaha. silly me. x kesah pon.
till then.. wassalam.
Thursday, December 01, 2011
Thursday, June 16, 2011
it's not always a sunny and windy day..
Salam.
Life ..
What do we know about life?
Life is all about giving and taking,
Life is all about staying and keep moving,
Life is all about accepting and improving,
Life is all about loving and hating,
Life is all about standing and walking,
Life is all about caring and ignoring,
Life is all about leaving and coming,
Life is all about you and me,
Life is contradicting everything.
And everything that contradicts is,
interesting.
That's what life is.
Life ..
What do we know about life?
Life is all about giving and taking,
Life is all about staying and keep moving,
Life is all about accepting and improving,
Life is all about loving and hating,
Life is all about standing and walking,
Life is all about caring and ignoring,
Life is all about leaving and coming,
Life is all about you and me,
Life is contradicting everything.
And everything that contradicts is,
interesting.
That's what life is.
Saturday, May 21, 2011
I am still here
Assalamualaikum...
Dear blog, thank you for being such a patient blog (for what ever that means).. i know i have been ranting and complaining about mostly bad things in my life. Not that i blamed myself for being such a crappy blogger. But, thanks anyway. You gave a chance to let out all my feelings that i cannot say it out loud. Thanks to you, i have become a better writer.
My life has had many many ups and downs.. mostly down. Everytime good things happen, bad things also happen. So, i always think, why did this has to be me? Why can't i live a simpler life? Why my life is so complicated? Well, i supposed that should make me stronger. I am stronger. But, somehow, my heart has hardened. It became less heartily and it scares me. I am scared of myself. I always thought i am better than anyone. I am. But i wished i am not.
I want to get married. I want to start a family. But not the way my parents want me to. I want a guy to want to marry me, not because of my family. I want a guy who loves me, no matter how bad i am, regardless of my bad habits. I want him to understand me, someone who can withstand me, my temper, my jealousy, my fluctuates emotions. I just want someone who can compliment me, complete the remaining parts of me. But, no matter how hard i try, it just seems so wrong. I always meet the wrong guy.
Being in a judgmental community is hard. I don't want to explain myself why i am still single, while my younger sister is married and expecting her 1st baby. I am sick of this kind of society. Why can't you all leave me alone? Let me decide when i want to get married.
I'm gonna stop myself here. The longer i write, the more emotional this entry will be. Stay tuned for any , what ever. Bye.
Wassalam.
Dear blog, thank you for being such a patient blog (for what ever that means).. i know i have been ranting and complaining about mostly bad things in my life. Not that i blamed myself for being such a crappy blogger. But, thanks anyway. You gave a chance to let out all my feelings that i cannot say it out loud. Thanks to you, i have become a better writer.
My life has had many many ups and downs.. mostly down. Everytime good things happen, bad things also happen. So, i always think, why did this has to be me? Why can't i live a simpler life? Why my life is so complicated? Well, i supposed that should make me stronger. I am stronger. But, somehow, my heart has hardened. It became less heartily and it scares me. I am scared of myself. I always thought i am better than anyone. I am. But i wished i am not.
I want to get married. I want to start a family. But not the way my parents want me to. I want a guy to want to marry me, not because of my family. I want a guy who loves me, no matter how bad i am, regardless of my bad habits. I want him to understand me, someone who can withstand me, my temper, my jealousy, my fluctuates emotions. I just want someone who can compliment me, complete the remaining parts of me. But, no matter how hard i try, it just seems so wrong. I always meet the wrong guy.
Being in a judgmental community is hard. I don't want to explain myself why i am still single, while my younger sister is married and expecting her 1st baby. I am sick of this kind of society. Why can't you all leave me alone? Let me decide when i want to get married.
I'm gonna stop myself here. The longer i write, the more emotional this entry will be. Stay tuned for any , what ever. Bye.
Wassalam.
Sunday, April 24, 2011
bad sign
salam.
i am here. it's almost everytime i am here, it means i'm not in a good mood. yes. i am not.
have been feeling miserable since friday. i am not quite sure why. but i am feeling sad. angry.
also, i keep waking up in the middle of the night. and starts thinking. bad habit. (please don't mind the grammar. i'm not in the mood for a beautiful sentence with the correct grammar. huh )
just now, i snapped at my ex-bf (now a fren), without solid reasons. im sure he is in shock as well as i am. i cant cry. don't know what to be cried about. i cant complaint. don't have anyone who is willing to hear my crap.
for once, i just want everything to fall in it's place. not scattered and shattered. just like my life now. everything that i did seems wrong.
i should stop here. before i turn into a crappy-aimi. just dont read this if u feel annoyed with me. ok. now im sarcactic. this is a very very bad sign. bad. very.
i am here. it's almost everytime i am here, it means i'm not in a good mood. yes. i am not.
have been feeling miserable since friday. i am not quite sure why. but i am feeling sad. angry.
also, i keep waking up in the middle of the night. and starts thinking. bad habit. (please don't mind the grammar. i'm not in the mood for a beautiful sentence with the correct grammar. huh )
just now, i snapped at my ex-bf (now a fren), without solid reasons. im sure he is in shock as well as i am. i cant cry. don't know what to be cried about. i cant complaint. don't have anyone who is willing to hear my crap.
for once, i just want everything to fall in it's place. not scattered and shattered. just like my life now. everything that i did seems wrong.
i should stop here. before i turn into a crappy-aimi. just dont read this if u feel annoyed with me. ok. now im sarcactic. this is a very very bad sign. bad. very.
Friday, April 15, 2011
the fiftieth day....
Assalamualaikum, dear blog.
Sorry for not updating for quite a while. Otak dan sendi2 tangan dah berkarat nak menulis & menaip. Tapi, arini terasa nak update. Terasa nak buat impromptu poem ari jumaat ni.
Title: Here And Nowhere.
Today i woke up and i smiled,
Brushed my teeth and i prayed,
Took my bath and i clothed myself,
Ate my breakfast and my morning coffee.
Today they say is a new day,
Instead just a new date,
Today i am still here,
Just like yesterday, and the day before.
Maybe i am a coward,
For not wanting what everyone wants,
I might be a fool,
For always playing cool.
I found joy, nowhere,
I seek love, but nowhere to be found,
I hide my feelings, here in my heart,
And I am still here, struggling to live.
You might not understand,
Why i wrote this,
But, you would probably know,
The reason behind this fear.
I am here, but nowhere near.
by: Aimi R. (15th April 2011, 1.21 pm)
Sorry for not updating for quite a while. Otak dan sendi2 tangan dah berkarat nak menulis & menaip. Tapi, arini terasa nak update. Terasa nak buat impromptu poem ari jumaat ni.
Title: Here And Nowhere.
Today i woke up and i smiled,
Brushed my teeth and i prayed,
Took my bath and i clothed myself,
Ate my breakfast and my morning coffee.
Today they say is a new day,
Instead just a new date,
Today i am still here,
Just like yesterday, and the day before.
Maybe i am a coward,
For not wanting what everyone wants,
I might be a fool,
For always playing cool.
I found joy, nowhere,
I seek love, but nowhere to be found,
I hide my feelings, here in my heart,
And I am still here, struggling to live.
You might not understand,
Why i wrote this,
But, you would probably know,
The reason behind this fear.
I am here, but nowhere near.
by: Aimi R. (15th April 2011, 1.21 pm)
Monday, February 21, 2011
Not seeing and not hearing
The life is kind of static right now...
Same routine repeated everyday..
Not having any goal or something that i want to achive. It sucks.
Not having any feeling for anyone. Boring. Lame.
Heartless. Like a dead man walking. Or like a brain dead patient. Or like zombie kg pisang. What ever. Its not like i care.
Bye.
Same routine repeated everyday..
Not having any goal or something that i want to achive. It sucks.
Not having any feeling for anyone. Boring. Lame.
Heartless. Like a dead man walking. Or like a brain dead patient. Or like zombie kg pisang. What ever. Its not like i care.
Bye.
Wednesday, February 02, 2011
Sunday, January 09, 2011
photoblogging
Salam all...
Should i start a photoblog? what say you?
(i used a preset setting, er..two actually. csi miami + a B&W preset)
although it is a bit late, i finally installed my cute Laptop a Lightroom..yeay! quite interesting i must say.
Should i start a photoblog? what say you?
(i used a preset setting, er..two actually. csi miami + a B&W preset)
although it is a bit late, i finally installed my cute Laptop a Lightroom..yeay! quite interesting i must say.
Thursday, January 06, 2011
getting better
Salam.
yesterday, Dr. J, the person that i admire (either as photographer or as a doctor), comments this on my facebook post:
yesterday, Dr. J, the person that i admire (either as photographer or as a doctor), comments this on my facebook post:
" You are getting better & better Aimi...membuatkan saya nak keluar ambik gambar aje.."
that simple comment really made my day...hearing someone that is considered "otai" telling you, that you are getting better, means that i took better picture nowadays compared to my earlier shots. so, that means i did learned something in this 1 year after my canon 500d was bought.
i was hoping to become better this year, shoot better picture, and i am aiming for a new "guy". It's about time i should upgrade my 500d. now, need to kumpul some money.
4th January - that date was my 27th birthday. i didn't write any entry, because i somehow realized that i have been blogging everytime it's my birthday for the past two years. (wow...it's 2-y-o already? now entering the 3rd year..). so, i decided not to this year.
that simple comment really made my day...hearing someone that is considered "otai" telling you, that you are getting better, means that i took better picture nowadays compared to my earlier shots. so, that means i did learned something in this 1 year after my canon 500d was bought.
i was hoping to become better this year, shoot better picture, and i am aiming for a new "guy". It's about time i should upgrade my 500d. now, need to kumpul some money.
4th January - that date was my 27th birthday. i didn't write any entry, because i somehow realized that i have been blogging everytime it's my birthday for the past two years. (wow...it's 2-y-o already? now entering the 3rd year..). so, i decided not to this year.
i started with potraiture as my interest, but as time goes by, i feels that i might as well have come to like landscape and nature now. but, whatever genre that i interested in, i will make sure that my picture has "moment" in it.
so now....targetting a new UWA lens.. :)
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