Salam.
Life ..
What do we know about life?
Life is all about giving and taking,
Life is all about staying and keep moving,
Life is all about accepting and improving,
Life is all about loving and hating,
Life is all about standing and walking,
Life is all about caring and ignoring,
Life is all about leaving and coming,
Life is all about you and me,
Life is contradicting everything.
And everything that contradicts is,
interesting.
That's what life is.
Showing posts with label My Poetic Side. Show all posts
Showing posts with label My Poetic Side. Show all posts
Thursday, June 16, 2011
Friday, April 15, 2011
the fiftieth day....
Assalamualaikum, dear blog.
Sorry for not updating for quite a while. Otak dan sendi2 tangan dah berkarat nak menulis & menaip. Tapi, arini terasa nak update. Terasa nak buat impromptu poem ari jumaat ni.
Title: Here And Nowhere.
Today i woke up and i smiled,
Brushed my teeth and i prayed,
Took my bath and i clothed myself,
Ate my breakfast and my morning coffee.
Today they say is a new day,
Instead just a new date,
Today i am still here,
Just like yesterday, and the day before.
Maybe i am a coward,
For not wanting what everyone wants,
I might be a fool,
For always playing cool.
I found joy, nowhere,
I seek love, but nowhere to be found,
I hide my feelings, here in my heart,
And I am still here, struggling to live.
You might not understand,
Why i wrote this,
But, you would probably know,
The reason behind this fear.
I am here, but nowhere near.
by: Aimi R. (15th April 2011, 1.21 pm)
Sorry for not updating for quite a while. Otak dan sendi2 tangan dah berkarat nak menulis & menaip. Tapi, arini terasa nak update. Terasa nak buat impromptu poem ari jumaat ni.
Title: Here And Nowhere.
Today i woke up and i smiled,
Brushed my teeth and i prayed,
Took my bath and i clothed myself,
Ate my breakfast and my morning coffee.
Today they say is a new day,
Instead just a new date,
Today i am still here,
Just like yesterday, and the day before.
Maybe i am a coward,
For not wanting what everyone wants,
I might be a fool,
For always playing cool.
I found joy, nowhere,
I seek love, but nowhere to be found,
I hide my feelings, here in my heart,
And I am still here, struggling to live.
You might not understand,
Why i wrote this,
But, you would probably know,
The reason behind this fear.
I am here, but nowhere near.
by: Aimi R. (15th April 2011, 1.21 pm)
Monday, September 27, 2010
retreat...
Ya Allah,
andai ini yang terbaik untukku,
aku redha..
andai dia bukan untukku,
aku redha...
andai ini dugaan menguji keimananku,
aku redha..
Ya Allah,
airmata yang tumpah ini,
Kau redhailah ia,
kesedihan ini,
Kau redhailah ia.
Ya Allah,
Hanya Kau Mengetahui isi hatiku,
Hanya Kau Mengetahui semua perjalananku..
Hanya Kau Mengetahui ikhlaskah aku..
Hanya Kau..
Ya Allah,
Biarlah esokku disinari pelangi,
Biarlah esokku masih berdiri,
bernafas berbakti di muka bumi,
Biarlah esokku cinta akan kutemui,
Cinta semata-mata keranaMu, Ilahi.....
KepadaMu, Ya Allah, aku redha dan tawakkal....
andai ini yang terbaik untukku,
aku redha..
andai dia bukan untukku,
aku redha...
andai ini dugaan menguji keimananku,
aku redha..
Ya Allah,
airmata yang tumpah ini,
Kau redhailah ia,
kesedihan ini,
Kau redhailah ia.
Ya Allah,
Hanya Kau Mengetahui isi hatiku,
Hanya Kau Mengetahui semua perjalananku..
Hanya Kau Mengetahui ikhlaskah aku..
Hanya Kau..
Ya Allah,
Biarlah esokku disinari pelangi,
Biarlah esokku masih berdiri,
bernafas berbakti di muka bumi,
Biarlah esokku cinta akan kutemui,
Cinta semata-mata keranaMu, Ilahi.....
KepadaMu, Ya Allah, aku redha dan tawakkal....
Sunday, September 26, 2010
this entry is for awak...
salam...
in less than a month, akan genaplah setahun kita start contact balik...awak mesti x ingat kan? tp sy ingat.. msg 1st yang awak hantar kat saya, saya still simpan smpai sekarang. in fact, saya simpan semua msg awk kat sy...mayb dah mencecah ribuan rasanya... smpai saat ni, saya masih x paham kenapa awak buat saya mcm ni...sedangkan awak yang mula dulu. when i said i want to slow down, awak still datang pada saya. you said something like you want to start saving to "pinang" me... and now. you are doing this to me. kenapa? awak kata saya takkan faham reason awak... kenapa? kenapa saya takkan faham? sebab there's no reason at all, kan? cuma alasan awak je, kan? im not that stupid lah ! saya nak sangat benci awak...tapi sy tak berdaya...sebab awak dah jadi sebahagian dari diri saya.. ingat lagi masa awak marah ngan kawan awak? sy suruh awak pretend yang saye ni kwn awk, and you did. saya suruh awak cakap apa yang awak nak marah kwn awak, u did also. masa tu, it feels like you are opening up yourself to me. but, i guess saya memang takde makna langsung dalam hidup awak kan? dulu, bila saya lama tak msg awak, awk akan tanye sy knape senyap je? akan datang, lepas awak buat saya mcm ni, awak akan tanya lagi ke? kalau awak tanye, awak memang tak pernah fikir perasaan saya. Yang saya sedih sekali, sebab awak yang mulakan semua ni...bukan saya. Awak yang tukar panggilan kita. Aku-Mu awak tukar ke Saya-Awak... ingat? untuk apa semua tu awak? kalau akhirnya awak hanya nak lukakan perasaan saya je?
Cuma, satu je saya harap...awak tak menyesal dengan keputusan awak. Sebab, kalau awak menyesal, mungkin dah terlambat. Dan, saya taknak jadi orang yang tak tetap pendirian. Lepas ni, saya takkan ambil tahu pasal awak lagi...awak nak makan banyak mana pon, makan lah. sya takkan ada untuk halang awak. kalau awak sakit, pandai-pandailah awak g klinik. saya takkan suruh awak. dan kalau awak marah, awak jeritlah dekat dinding tu, saya takkan pretend jd kwn awk lagi...
Awak, saya sayang awak sangat-sangat...tapi sayang tu akan saya buang jauh-jauh.... kalau boleh sampai saya lupa yang saya pernah kenal awak...
Awak, goodbye ~
in less than a month, akan genaplah setahun kita start contact balik...awak mesti x ingat kan? tp sy ingat.. msg 1st yang awak hantar kat saya, saya still simpan smpai sekarang. in fact, saya simpan semua msg awk kat sy...mayb dah mencecah ribuan rasanya... smpai saat ni, saya masih x paham kenapa awak buat saya mcm ni...sedangkan awak yang mula dulu. when i said i want to slow down, awak still datang pada saya. you said something like you want to start saving to "pinang" me... and now. you are doing this to me. kenapa? awak kata saya takkan faham reason awak... kenapa? kenapa saya takkan faham? sebab there's no reason at all, kan? cuma alasan awak je, kan? im not that stupid lah ! saya nak sangat benci awak...tapi sy tak berdaya...sebab awak dah jadi sebahagian dari diri saya.. ingat lagi masa awak marah ngan kawan awak? sy suruh awak pretend yang saye ni kwn awk, and you did. saya suruh awak cakap apa yang awak nak marah kwn awak, u did also. masa tu, it feels like you are opening up yourself to me. but, i guess saya memang takde makna langsung dalam hidup awak kan? dulu, bila saya lama tak msg awak, awk akan tanye sy knape senyap je? akan datang, lepas awak buat saya mcm ni, awak akan tanya lagi ke? kalau awak tanye, awak memang tak pernah fikir perasaan saya. Yang saya sedih sekali, sebab awak yang mulakan semua ni...bukan saya. Awak yang tukar panggilan kita. Aku-Mu awak tukar ke Saya-Awak... ingat? untuk apa semua tu awak? kalau akhirnya awak hanya nak lukakan perasaan saya je?
Cuma, satu je saya harap...awak tak menyesal dengan keputusan awak. Sebab, kalau awak menyesal, mungkin dah terlambat. Dan, saya taknak jadi orang yang tak tetap pendirian. Lepas ni, saya takkan ambil tahu pasal awak lagi...awak nak makan banyak mana pon, makan lah. sya takkan ada untuk halang awak. kalau awak sakit, pandai-pandailah awak g klinik. saya takkan suruh awak. dan kalau awak marah, awak jeritlah dekat dinding tu, saya takkan pretend jd kwn awk lagi...
Awak, saya sayang awak sangat-sangat...tapi sayang tu akan saya buang jauh-jauh.... kalau boleh sampai saya lupa yang saya pernah kenal awak...
Awak, goodbye ~
Monday, September 20, 2010
Kisah Kita (part I)
Suatu masa dahulu, pada tahun 1999, tersebut kisah seorang remaja perempuan, Mimi (bukan nama sebenar) berusia 15 tahun. Dia mempunyai 4 org kawan baik... dan mereka telah bersahabat sejak tingkatan 1 lagi. Dipendekkan cerita, rakan2 baik Mimi tergolong antara budak2 yang agak nakal di sekolah.
Di tahun yang sama, terdapat seorang remaja lelaki, juga berusia 15 tahun, di sekolah yang sama, dengan nama Kay (bukan nama sebenar). Dan dia adalah antara yang "paling nakal" di sekolah.
Kawan2 Mimi, mereka suka menyakat Kay , kerana walaupun dia nakal, tetapi amat pemalu. Namun, "sakatan" mereka tidak disertai oleh Mimi, yang juga agak pendiam.
Entah bagaimana, satu hari, seorang kawan baik Mimi , Anne, datang memberitahu Mimi...
" Mimi, Kay kirim salam kat awak." Di hati Mimi..."kenapakah?"
Selang beberapa hari...salam dari Kay datang lagi, kali ini beserta sekeping surat yang mana kandungannya adalah Biodata diri Kay.
Tanpa Mimi sedari, Mimi mula membalas surat itu, setelah mendapat persetujuan kawan2 baikknya...die membalas dengan biodata dirinya juga.
*the love is in the air*
"Date" pertama mereka : di sebuah kelas di sekolah yang sama... dengan ditemani kawan2 baik Mimi. Bagi Mimi, itulah detik permulaan bermulanya dan berputiknya rasa suka dan cinta (mungkin?) terhadap Kay.
Mengenali Kay, dia mula mengambil tahu semua kesukaan Kay, dan hari demi hari, rasa itu semakin bersemi.
Pada waktu "prep", Mimi akan duduk di meja Kay dan begitu juga Kay, di meja Mimi. Mereka bertukar2 'nota cinta" ... dan kadang2 Kay akan datang ke kelas "prep" Mimi dengan alasan "nak ambil buku tertinggal..."
Kay pandai melukis. Pernah satu ketika, dia menghadiahkan Mimi sebuah lukisan, seorang gadis. Di hujung lukisan itu tertulis " i love u". Mimi sangat suka lukisan itu.
Namun, semua bermula apabila kawan2 baik Mimi dan kawan2 baik Kay bergaduh. Kay mula menjauhkan diri dari Mimi..sehinggalah pada suatu hari, terjadi satu kes khalwat yang menggemparkan seluruh penghuni sekolah mereka. Pada mulanya, Mimi tidak tahu siapa yang terlibat...namun, pada pagi Jumaat itu, warden asrama datang dan saat dia bertanya kepada seorang budak perempuan dengan siapa dia pada malam itu, budak itu menjawab "Kay."
Saat itu, Mimi terasa masa terhenti seketika dan seluruh pandangan bagaikan tertumpu kepadanya. Mimi tak tahu apa yang patut dia buat. Menangis? Menjerit? Bagaikan semua itu tersekat di kerongkongnya sahaja. Kawan2 Mimi terus datang menenangkan Mimi. Tapi Mimi cakap, " saya ok, jangan risau."
Pagi Ahad itu, Mimi terserempak dengan Kay sewaktu berjalan ke sekolah. Kay hanya tunduk. Mimi tengok muka Kay macam lebam. Mungkin akibat tamparan warden. Dalam hati Mimi, "kesian Kay."
Kes Kay kena bicara kat mahkamah sekolah. Sejak hari itu, Kay tak pernah jumpa Mimi lagi. Mimi cuma tahu perkembangan Kay dari kawan2 Mimi je. Mimi dapat tahu, Kay hampir kena buang sekolah, dan semasa hari2 terakhir Kay sebelum digantung sekolah, Kay mintak maaf dengan semua, tapi bukan dengan Mimi. Kay minta maaf dengan kawan Mimi dan kawan Mimi cakap, "baik kau minta maaf dengan orang yang banyak berkorban untuk kau."
Lepas tu, baru Kay bagi surat kat Mimi... Kay cakap, " Saya minta maaf...sampai di sini sahaja lah persabahatan kita."
Mimi sedih. Sampai hati Kay buat Mimi macam ni. Apa salah Mimi?
Sebelum Kay tinggalkan sekolah tu, Mimi ajak Kay jumpa. Sebelum periksa PMR.
Mimi cakap, " maaf kalau saya ada buat salah dengan awak"
Kay cakap, "betul ke kita nak putus?"
Mimi cakap " awak yang putuskan hubungan kita " dalam hati.
Mimi sangat susah hati selepas hari itu. Dia tak boleh belajar dengan tenang. Nasib ada kawan2 Mimi. Sejak hari tu, Mimi dah tak duduk di meja Kay bila "prep".
Pernah satu hari tu, Mimi dan kawan2 tengah belajar di kelas kawan Mimi, Bie, kawan Mimi nak pinjam buku Mimi, jadi dia pergi kelas Mimi. Balik dari kelas Mimi, dia ajak Mimi pergi jalan-jalan..."ambil angin" katanya. Rupa-rupanya, Kay ada kat meja Mimi. Pagi esok, Mimi tengok atas meja dia ade satu lagu.. Nothing else Matters (lagu Metallica). Kay bagi.
Dalam hati Mimi..kenapa?
Kisah Mimi dan Kay berakhir sepertimana berakhirnya PMR pada tahun tu...
TO BE CONTINUED......
Di tahun yang sama, terdapat seorang remaja lelaki, juga berusia 15 tahun, di sekolah yang sama, dengan nama Kay (bukan nama sebenar). Dan dia adalah antara yang "paling nakal" di sekolah.
Kawan2 Mimi, mereka suka menyakat Kay , kerana walaupun dia nakal, tetapi amat pemalu. Namun, "sakatan" mereka tidak disertai oleh Mimi, yang juga agak pendiam.
Entah bagaimana, satu hari, seorang kawan baik Mimi , Anne, datang memberitahu Mimi...
" Mimi, Kay kirim salam kat awak." Di hati Mimi..."kenapakah?"
Selang beberapa hari...salam dari Kay datang lagi, kali ini beserta sekeping surat yang mana kandungannya adalah Biodata diri Kay.
Tanpa Mimi sedari, Mimi mula membalas surat itu, setelah mendapat persetujuan kawan2 baikknya...die membalas dengan biodata dirinya juga.
*the love is in the air*
"Date" pertama mereka : di sebuah kelas di sekolah yang sama... dengan ditemani kawan2 baik Mimi. Bagi Mimi, itulah detik permulaan bermulanya dan berputiknya rasa suka dan cinta (mungkin?) terhadap Kay.
Mengenali Kay, dia mula mengambil tahu semua kesukaan Kay, dan hari demi hari, rasa itu semakin bersemi.
Pada waktu "prep", Mimi akan duduk di meja Kay dan begitu juga Kay, di meja Mimi. Mereka bertukar2 'nota cinta" ... dan kadang2 Kay akan datang ke kelas "prep" Mimi dengan alasan "nak ambil buku tertinggal..."
Kay pandai melukis. Pernah satu ketika, dia menghadiahkan Mimi sebuah lukisan, seorang gadis. Di hujung lukisan itu tertulis " i love u". Mimi sangat suka lukisan itu.
Namun, semua bermula apabila kawan2 baik Mimi dan kawan2 baik Kay bergaduh. Kay mula menjauhkan diri dari Mimi..sehinggalah pada suatu hari, terjadi satu kes khalwat yang menggemparkan seluruh penghuni sekolah mereka. Pada mulanya, Mimi tidak tahu siapa yang terlibat...namun, pada pagi Jumaat itu, warden asrama datang dan saat dia bertanya kepada seorang budak perempuan dengan siapa dia pada malam itu, budak itu menjawab "Kay."
Saat itu, Mimi terasa masa terhenti seketika dan seluruh pandangan bagaikan tertumpu kepadanya. Mimi tak tahu apa yang patut dia buat. Menangis? Menjerit? Bagaikan semua itu tersekat di kerongkongnya sahaja. Kawan2 Mimi terus datang menenangkan Mimi. Tapi Mimi cakap, " saya ok, jangan risau."
Pagi Ahad itu, Mimi terserempak dengan Kay sewaktu berjalan ke sekolah. Kay hanya tunduk. Mimi tengok muka Kay macam lebam. Mungkin akibat tamparan warden. Dalam hati Mimi, "kesian Kay."
Kes Kay kena bicara kat mahkamah sekolah. Sejak hari itu, Kay tak pernah jumpa Mimi lagi. Mimi cuma tahu perkembangan Kay dari kawan2 Mimi je. Mimi dapat tahu, Kay hampir kena buang sekolah, dan semasa hari2 terakhir Kay sebelum digantung sekolah, Kay mintak maaf dengan semua, tapi bukan dengan Mimi. Kay minta maaf dengan kawan Mimi dan kawan Mimi cakap, "baik kau minta maaf dengan orang yang banyak berkorban untuk kau."
Lepas tu, baru Kay bagi surat kat Mimi... Kay cakap, " Saya minta maaf...sampai di sini sahaja lah persabahatan kita."
Mimi sedih. Sampai hati Kay buat Mimi macam ni. Apa salah Mimi?
Sebelum Kay tinggalkan sekolah tu, Mimi ajak Kay jumpa. Sebelum periksa PMR.
Mimi cakap, " maaf kalau saya ada buat salah dengan awak"
Kay cakap, "betul ke kita nak putus?"
Mimi cakap " awak yang putuskan hubungan kita " dalam hati.
Mimi sangat susah hati selepas hari itu. Dia tak boleh belajar dengan tenang. Nasib ada kawan2 Mimi. Sejak hari tu, Mimi dah tak duduk di meja Kay bila "prep".
Pernah satu hari tu, Mimi dan kawan2 tengah belajar di kelas kawan Mimi, Bie, kawan Mimi nak pinjam buku Mimi, jadi dia pergi kelas Mimi. Balik dari kelas Mimi, dia ajak Mimi pergi jalan-jalan..."ambil angin" katanya. Rupa-rupanya, Kay ada kat meja Mimi. Pagi esok, Mimi tengok atas meja dia ade satu lagu.. Nothing else Matters (lagu Metallica). Kay bagi.
Dalam hati Mimi..kenapa?
Kisah Mimi dan Kay berakhir sepertimana berakhirnya PMR pada tahun tu...
TO BE CONTINUED......
Wednesday, September 08, 2010
hati gundah~
salam...
wahai hati...tenanglah dikau...
jangan la susah hati...
saye x boleh tgk awak susah hati, hatiku~
knape ngan awk, hati?
awak risau kan ape?
kalau awak resah, saye lagi gundah...
hati, tenang ek...
esok ok la kot...
jangan risau x tentu pasal...
saye xboleh tidur nanti...~
Hati.......
wahai hati...tenanglah dikau...
jangan la susah hati...
saye x boleh tgk awak susah hati, hatiku~
knape ngan awk, hati?
awak risau kan ape?
kalau awak resah, saye lagi gundah...
hati, tenang ek...
esok ok la kot...
jangan risau x tentu pasal...
saye xboleh tidur nanti...~
Hati.......
Friday, April 02, 2010
when u're gone...
yesterday...
might be the saddest day of all,
took me almost a night to realize that...
when morning comes,
tears starts flowing like it would never stop...
you are gone...
leaving all of us,
not prepared and unexpected..
still hoping that is was just a really bad dream..
now,
i can't see you anymore..
it hurts..just to think about it..
you are someone to us..
our significant other.
our time together,
i will always remember,
till the day that i will follow you..
wish i can say 'i love you' thousand times..
but,
you already gone.
we miss you..
so much until we die...
someday.
might be the saddest day of all,
took me almost a night to realize that...
when morning comes,
tears starts flowing like it would never stop...
you are gone...
leaving all of us,
not prepared and unexpected..
still hoping that is was just a really bad dream..
now,
i can't see you anymore..
it hurts..just to think about it..
you are someone to us..
our significant other.
our time together,
i will always remember,
till the day that i will follow you..
wish i can say 'i love you' thousand times..
but,
you already gone.
we miss you..
so much until we die...
someday.
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
missing the gud ol' days...
hi there..
it's been more than a month since the last i updated my bloggy...well, has been buzy-ing myself with work and so many other things..haha
for this past few weeks, i have been feeling empty and kind of 'static' (if u know what i mean..) and after this morning workshop, i realized how much i enjoyed clinical pharmacy, although during university days, CP was one of the subjects that i care the least.. somehow, i manage to feel alive, listening to clinical pharmacy stuff..huhu... wonder when will i be able to enjoy my work..
.......................................................................................
okay, that was updating-the-blog-part I..now here's part II..
why is it so hard to move on and leave the past behind? why do we still want to hold onto something that we know won't be ours? maybe that was human nature..always want to look back and once we look back, there will be things that we feel was left behind..and so, we go back..
move on,
dream on,
let it be gone,
you are not alone...
stay on,
hope on,
all done,
think beyond...
move and stay,
survived everyday,
when everything is grey,
step on it you may....
it's been more than a month since the last i updated my bloggy...well, has been buzy-ing myself with work and so many other things..haha
for this past few weeks, i have been feeling empty and kind of 'static' (if u know what i mean..) and after this morning workshop, i realized how much i enjoyed clinical pharmacy, although during university days, CP was one of the subjects that i care the least.. somehow, i manage to feel alive, listening to clinical pharmacy stuff..huhu... wonder when will i be able to enjoy my work..
.......................................................................................
okay, that was updating-the-blog-part I..now here's part II..
why is it so hard to move on and leave the past behind? why do we still want to hold onto something that we know won't be ours? maybe that was human nature..always want to look back and once we look back, there will be things that we feel was left behind..and so, we go back..
move on,
dream on,
let it be gone,
you are not alone...
stay on,
hope on,
all done,
think beyond...
move and stay,
survived everyday,
when everything is grey,
step on it you may....
Saturday, February 20, 2010
open letter
okay..this is not a letter to our PM or yang sewaktu dengannye...
rather it is a letter that i would never will have had the opportunity to send it...
so, this is from my heart..a letter to all the guys that i've encountered throughout my life (up until this moment)..
so, where to start? i'll start from when i was 15..erm, that was 11 years ago..(time do flies~sigh~)
To: WMZ
okay..you are my 1st "cinta monyet"..haha! From you, i learned about so many new different things.. U r the 1st one that introduced me to Korn, Rage against the machine ~life is peachy~, karachi, etc..and how u called urself emmet...and believe it or not, i still remember ur bday..3 November..but, because of u also, i became a commitment-phobic person..it took me 4 years to overcome that...by da way, where r u now? hidup lg ke? and, how why you gave me that song --> nothing else matter by metallica...
To: FF
hmm, frens called u P. it was during SPM exam, when u 1st gave me a love letter..(on that kertas kajang yang ada tulis sulit)..never thought that u liked me..and did u know, ur bestfren once called me, just to tell how much u liked me? im so sorry, the truth is, i did liked you too, but at that time, i was so afraid to be in any relationship...so i said no. But, i know u r happy now..so, im happy too. er, did u have facebook acc? add me..=)
To: MRE & NN
MRE, i think of you highly, so when i know that u liked me, it was hard to accept. remember when you came to meet me during SPM exam, in front of Aspuri, that was the most awkward moment..but then, when u try to set me up with NN, i am so damn angry..not because i didn't like him, but because of ur lies. Liar -that was type of person that i despise the most..so, NN, i ignore you because im angry with ur fren, not because i am so sombong to meet you..sorry. but, both of u are fine and happy now, so i'm happy too. this is the time when i realize that i have a strong instinct..
To: AAZ
from all the guys that came into my life, u r the one that i feel so sorry the most. sy sgt bersalah kpd awk. sorry that i gave u hope and take it back in such a short time...so sorry. u have every right to hate me..but please dont. seeing that you have found the love of ur life, i think that what fate is..right? can u pray for my happiness also?
To: H
ur determination always amazed me. when did u start liking me? i never realized. do not ask me why i said no. 3 times. i dont have the answer. i thank u because u never stopped being my fren. even now, im so grateful that u came to me with those questions..thanks! and u know what, someone once made me cried, saying that i didnt accept u because of ur appearence. u know that wasn't the case. u r just not the one. and please, keep me updated okay~i wanna know all the details..hehe
To: MT
hmm, u r the hardest one. what can i say to u? did u know when i started to like u? guess what, it was during matriks. u would never have guessed that, right? never did i. and that 4 years was the longest i ever liked someone. i thought that u are the one, but it turned out that im not the one for u. u are the 2nd person that made me cried. ~sigh~ i've wasted all my 4 years for nothing. nevrmind. as long as u r happy. and please, act like usual okay..im so over you! we're frens anyway. so, now or later, we're gonna meet each other any other way..=)
To: MBB (bkn name sebenar)
haha..this one, i can't say anything. but, ur presence really cheer up my day... did u know that i had a crush on you? wish to see you one day..face to face okay!
To: AF
FYI, u are the 3rd person to make me cry..haha! you came right at the moment when i needed someone to talk to, you made me smile..again. i didnt know myself when i started to fall for you..but i did. when u said no, it was like all my spirit was taken away from me. but, i love you as my fren, so, i can't stand the thought of losing you as a fren...so be it. dont worry about me, because i am me once more. just dont stop being my friend.
anyhow, each one of you thought me different things. even things might have ended badly for us, i still wished happiness to all of you..it was just that i never had the chance to say sorry. but, guessed what? some of you have found your love and happily married, so that's a good ending actually. look at the bright side. just pretend that i'm a cupid, person that u have to meet to find your love. as for me, im good as where i am..i have my girls~! they are the BEST~
Love,
Aimi.
rather it is a letter that i would never will have had the opportunity to send it...
so, this is from my heart..a letter to all the guys that i've encountered throughout my life (up until this moment)..
so, where to start? i'll start from when i was 15..erm, that was 11 years ago..(time do flies~sigh~)
To: WMZ
okay..you are my 1st "cinta monyet"..haha! From you, i learned about so many new different things.. U r the 1st one that introduced me to Korn, Rage against the machine ~life is peachy~, karachi, etc..and how u called urself emmet...and believe it or not, i still remember ur bday..3 November..but, because of u also, i became a commitment-phobic person..it took me 4 years to overcome that...by da way, where r u now? hidup lg ke? and, how why you gave me that song --> nothing else matter by metallica...
To: FF
hmm, frens called u P. it was during SPM exam, when u 1st gave me a love letter..(on that kertas kajang yang ada tulis sulit)..never thought that u liked me..and did u know, ur bestfren once called me, just to tell how much u liked me? im so sorry, the truth is, i did liked you too, but at that time, i was so afraid to be in any relationship...so i said no. But, i know u r happy now..so, im happy too. er, did u have facebook acc? add me..=)
To: MRE & NN
MRE, i think of you highly, so when i know that u liked me, it was hard to accept. remember when you came to meet me during SPM exam, in front of Aspuri, that was the most awkward moment..but then, when u try to set me up with NN, i am so damn angry..not because i didn't like him, but because of ur lies. Liar -that was type of person that i despise the most..so, NN, i ignore you because im angry with ur fren, not because i am so sombong to meet you..sorry. but, both of u are fine and happy now, so i'm happy too. this is the time when i realize that i have a strong instinct..
To: AAZ
from all the guys that came into my life, u r the one that i feel so sorry the most. sy sgt bersalah kpd awk. sorry that i gave u hope and take it back in such a short time...so sorry. u have every right to hate me..but please dont. seeing that you have found the love of ur life, i think that what fate is..right? can u pray for my happiness also?
To: H
ur determination always amazed me. when did u start liking me? i never realized. do not ask me why i said no. 3 times. i dont have the answer. i thank u because u never stopped being my fren. even now, im so grateful that u came to me with those questions..thanks! and u know what, someone once made me cried, saying that i didnt accept u because of ur appearence. u know that wasn't the case. u r just not the one. and please, keep me updated okay~i wanna know all the details..hehe
To: MT
hmm, u r the hardest one. what can i say to u? did u know when i started to like u? guess what, it was during matriks. u would never have guessed that, right? never did i. and that 4 years was the longest i ever liked someone. i thought that u are the one, but it turned out that im not the one for u. u are the 2nd person that made me cried. ~sigh~ i've wasted all my 4 years for nothing. nevrmind. as long as u r happy. and please, act like usual okay..im so over you! we're frens anyway. so, now or later, we're gonna meet each other any other way..=)
To: MBB (bkn name sebenar)
haha..this one, i can't say anything. but, ur presence really cheer up my day... did u know that i had a crush on you? wish to see you one day..face to face okay!
To: AF
FYI, u are the 3rd person to make me cry..haha! you came right at the moment when i needed someone to talk to, you made me smile..again. i didnt know myself when i started to fall for you..but i did. when u said no, it was like all my spirit was taken away from me. but, i love you as my fren, so, i can't stand the thought of losing you as a fren...so be it. dont worry about me, because i am me once more. just dont stop being my friend.
anyhow, each one of you thought me different things. even things might have ended badly for us, i still wished happiness to all of you..it was just that i never had the chance to say sorry. but, guessed what? some of you have found your love and happily married, so that's a good ending actually. look at the bright side. just pretend that i'm a cupid, person that u have to meet to find your love. as for me, im good as where i am..i have my girls~! they are the BEST~
Love,
Aimi.
Saturday, January 02, 2010
mood: confused...
there'll be a time in our life that we'll feel very confused...not knowing what to believe anymore, not knowing that is there to believe..don't know who can be trusted..
keliru ini,
adakah aku seorang,
atau kau juga merasakannya?
but, the worst is confused with what we want..tak tau ape yang diingini dalam hidup, keliru dengan kehendak hati, kemahuan fikiran...
just say what you want,
don't confuse me
anymore...
not quite the right song for this mood, but the melody kinda...
keliru ini,
adakah aku seorang,
atau kau juga merasakannya?
but, the worst is confused with what we want..tak tau ape yang diingini dalam hidup, keliru dengan kehendak hati, kemahuan fikiran...
just say what you want,
don't confuse me
anymore...
not quite the right song for this mood, but the melody kinda...
Monday, December 14, 2009
If Love like this..
Mode: Poetic
If..
Love like this,
always in peace,
always be his,
love like this, it is?
If,
Love like that,
always in bad,
always be mad,
love like this, is that?
Love,
Always like this and that,
some peace and bad,
never know when we'll be mad..
but, it'll always be there..
Love like this.
Man,
You better love like this..
or i'll never gonna say yes..
and i'll be the one you always miss..
so, love me like this,
and always be there...
If love is just like this...
My heart will always beating with his..
If..
Love like this,
always in peace,
always be his,
love like this, it is?
If,
Love like that,
always in bad,
always be mad,
love like this, is that?
Love,
Always like this and that,
some peace and bad,
never know when we'll be mad..
but, it'll always be there..
Love like this.
Man,
You better love like this..
or i'll never gonna say yes..
and i'll be the one you always miss..
so, love me like this,
and always be there...
If love is just like this...
My heart will always beating with his..
Friday, November 13, 2009
Mode: Poetic
Kau yang ku panggil teman..
Suatu masa dulu,
Kita adalah kawan,teman dan sahabat,
Kau Kawan dalam pelajaran,
Kau teman meluahkan perasaan,
Kau sahabat yang sentiasa di sisi,
Kaulah yang ku panggil teman.
Tapi sahabatku,
Benarkah apa yang kau kata?
Bahawa aku bukan sekadar teman bagimu,
Bahawa perasaanmu bukan setakat kawan,
Keliru aku.
Teman,
Berikan aku ruang dan masa,
Menilai erti perasaan ini,
Aku takut dirimu jua,
tersilap menafsir hatimu,
biarkan masa menentukan segalanya...
Ku yakin pada mu, teman.
Andai,
Tersurat di azali,
Kita bukan sekadar teman,
Terimalah aku seadanya,
sepertimana kau menerimaku,
sebagai sahabatmu...
13/11/2009 - Aku yang kau panggil teman.
Suatu masa dulu,
Kita adalah kawan,teman dan sahabat,
Kau Kawan dalam pelajaran,
Kau teman meluahkan perasaan,
Kau sahabat yang sentiasa di sisi,
Kaulah yang ku panggil teman.
Tapi sahabatku,
Benarkah apa yang kau kata?
Bahawa aku bukan sekadar teman bagimu,
Bahawa perasaanmu bukan setakat kawan,
Keliru aku.
Teman,
Berikan aku ruang dan masa,
Menilai erti perasaan ini,
Aku takut dirimu jua,
tersilap menafsir hatimu,
biarkan masa menentukan segalanya...
Ku yakin pada mu, teman.
Andai,
Tersurat di azali,
Kita bukan sekadar teman,
Terimalah aku seadanya,
sepertimana kau menerimaku,
sebagai sahabatmu...
13/11/2009 - Aku yang kau panggil teman.
Saturday, January 10, 2009
Perang sana Sini....
Sedih + geram + menyampah bila tgk berita tentang kekejaman Rejim Israel. Sampai bila dorang nak seksa penduduk Palestin yang takde buat salah ape2pun dekat Israel. x paham apa kepuasan yg dorg dapat dengan memusnahkan hidup org lain. Asal celik mata pagi2, dah pikir nak serang Palestin dengan cara apa lagi... tak terasa ke nak hidup dengan aman, bangun pagi, pegi keje, berehat, bersantai dengan family...ish2...betapa keras dah sejuknye hati org2 Israel/Yahudi.
Cakap pasal perang, dekat sini pun tengah perang gak ni... haha! perang poster and bendera... kalo la ada foreigner dtg sini, mesti ingt tgh darurat tgk polis kat mana2 je...
Dan yg paling penting, tanggal 6 Januari 09 adalah dalam sejarah aku g keje, perjalanan amik masa 3 jam...lama giler duk dlm keta... kuar dari umah kul 7.05 pg, sampai kat spital kul 10.10 pg...huhu!
Menyusahkan betol...nasib baik la keta Auto, kalo manual agaknye, mau cramp kaki aku asyik duk tekan clutch je..pastu, manusia punya la ramai, xpernah aku tgk t** penuh sesak ngan manusia and kenderaan yg mcm2 plate number...dari mcm2 negeri...
A war is a journey,
A journey towards disaster,
A disaster is a pain,
A pain that will never disappear...
(1.17pm - 10/01/09)
Cakap pasal perang, dekat sini pun tengah perang gak ni... haha! perang poster and bendera... kalo la ada foreigner dtg sini, mesti ingt tgh darurat tgk polis kat mana2 je...
Dan yg paling penting, tanggal 6 Januari 09 adalah dalam sejarah aku g keje, perjalanan amik masa 3 jam...lama giler duk dlm keta... kuar dari umah kul 7.05 pg, sampai kat spital kul 10.10 pg...huhu!
Menyusahkan betol...nasib baik la keta Auto, kalo manual agaknye, mau cramp kaki aku asyik duk tekan clutch je..pastu, manusia punya la ramai, xpernah aku tgk t** penuh sesak ngan manusia and kenderaan yg mcm2 plate number...dari mcm2 negeri...
A war is a journey,
A journey towards disaster,
A disaster is a pain,
A pain that will never disappear...
(1.17pm - 10/01/09)
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
Thank you My fRiend..
~this entry is solely dedicated to my friends...~
To Faezah...thank you for being there for me, always..
and specially to Azri.. walaupun ko kdg2 x betol sgt (hehe..sorry~) tp aku sgt appreciate for whatever opinion and pendapat ko... terima kasih sebab mendengar luahan hati aku hari ni
(18/11/2008)...terasa ringan sket kekusutan aku tu...=)
this is for u guys..
Kawankah kita?
atau sahabat?
hadirmu di sisiku,
memberi warna duniaku yang..
kadang2 tidak bermaya..
ku syukuri kurniaan-Nya..
tanpa mu teman,
mungkin aku tidak di sini
masih lagi tegak berdiri.
(11:06 pm - 18 Nov 08)
To Faezah...thank you for being there for me, always..
and specially to Azri.. walaupun ko kdg2 x betol sgt (hehe..sorry~) tp aku sgt appreciate for whatever opinion and pendapat ko... terima kasih sebab mendengar luahan hati aku hari ni
(18/11/2008)...terasa ringan sket kekusutan aku tu...=)
this is for u guys..
Kawankah kita?
atau sahabat?
hadirmu di sisiku,
memberi warna duniaku yang..
kadang2 tidak bermaya..
ku syukuri kurniaan-Nya..
tanpa mu teman,
mungkin aku tidak di sini
masih lagi tegak berdiri.
(11:06 pm - 18 Nov 08)
Thursday, August 21, 2008
Tomorrow will Never be Today
Always, we hope,
tomorrow we can cope.
Always, we will say,
tomorrow is a brighter day,
not like today,
and together we pray.
Believe what you see,
Trust your feeling,
only then you can be,
what you always dreaming.
When we thought about tomorrow,
dont forget that we have today,
If it gives us sorrow,
Remember that we were happy yesterday...
[Poem by: diri Sendiri]
~when people say that they want to this and that tomorrow, they always forget that there's many things that they didnt do today, so, how can we proceed to tomorrow if we still owe today (or maybe yesterday..). Think and take actions... if u feel that theres something that u 'lupa' nak buat, hurry up, before tomorrow 'menjelma'...hehe..
tomorrow we can cope.
Always, we will say,
tomorrow is a brighter day,
not like today,
and together we pray.
Believe what you see,
Trust your feeling,
only then you can be,
what you always dreaming.
When we thought about tomorrow,
dont forget that we have today,
If it gives us sorrow,
Remember that we were happy yesterday...
[Poem by: diri Sendiri]
~when people say that they want to this and that tomorrow, they always forget that there's many things that they didnt do today, so, how can we proceed to tomorrow if we still owe today (or maybe yesterday..). Think and take actions... if u feel that theres something that u 'lupa' nak buat, hurry up, before tomorrow 'menjelma'...hehe..
Monday, July 28, 2008
Esok yang kelam
Seandainya ku tahu,
esok ada apa,
akanku kota hari iniku,
agar esok tidakkan ku kesali
Sekiranya ku sedar,
esokku bagaimana,
akanku cari diriku hari ini,
agar esokku,
aku adalah aku
Namun,
semua adalah kelam bagiku,
tapi kelammu esok,
penerang hari iniku
penunjuk jalanmu esok
agar tidak ku lupa,
hari ini ku,
jua kelmarinku....
[Nukilan: Diri sendiri]
esok ada apa,
akanku kota hari iniku,
agar esok tidakkan ku kesali
Sekiranya ku sedar,
esokku bagaimana,
akanku cari diriku hari ini,
agar esokku,
aku adalah aku
Namun,
semua adalah kelam bagiku,
tapi kelammu esok,
penerang hari iniku
penunjuk jalanmu esok
agar tidak ku lupa,
hari ini ku,
jua kelmarinku....
[Nukilan: Diri sendiri]
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