open letter

okay..this is not a letter to our PM or yang sewaktu dengannye...
rather it is a letter that i would never will have had the opportunity to send it...
so, this is from my heart..a letter to all the guys that i've encountered throughout my life (up until this moment)..
so, where to start? i'll start from when i was 15..erm, that was 11 years ago..(time do flies~sigh~)

To: WMZ
okay..you are my 1st "cinta monyet"..haha! From you, i learned about so many new different things.. U r the 1st one that introduced me to Korn, Rage against the machine ~life is peachy~, karachi, etc..and how u called urself emmet...and believe it or not, i still remember ur bday..3 November..but, because of u also, i became a commitment-phobic person..it took me 4 years to overcome that...by da way, where r u now? hidup lg ke? and, how why you gave me that song --> nothing else matter by metallica...

To: FF
hmm, frens called u P. it was during SPM exam, when u 1st gave me a love letter..(on that kertas kajang yang ada tulis sulit)..never thought that u liked me..and did u know, ur bestfren once called me, just to tell how much u liked me? im so sorry, the truth is, i did liked you too, but at that time, i was so afraid to be in any relationship...so i said no. But, i know u r happy now..so, im happy too. er, did u have facebook acc? add me..=)

To: MRE & NN
MRE, i think of you highly, so when i know that u liked me, it was hard to accept. remember when you came to meet me during SPM exam, in front of Aspuri, that was the most awkward moment..but then, when u try to set me up with NN, i am so damn angry..not because i didn't like him, but because of ur lies. Liar -that was type of person that i despise the most..so, NN, i ignore you because im angry with ur fren, not because i am so sombong to meet you..sorry. but, both of u are fine and happy now, so i'm happy too. this is the time when i realize that i have a strong instinct..

To: AAZ
from all the guys that came into my life, u r the one that i feel so sorry the most. sy sgt bersalah kpd awk. sorry that i gave u hope and take it back in such a short time...so sorry. u have every right to hate me..but please dont. seeing that you have found the love of ur life, i think that what fate is..right? can u pray for my happiness also?

To: H
ur determination always amazed me. when did u start liking me? i never realized. do not ask me why i said no. 3 times. i dont have the answer. i thank u because u never stopped being my fren. even now, im so grateful that u came to me with those questions..thanks! and u know what, someone once made me cried, saying that i didnt accept u because of ur appearence. u know that wasn't the case. u r just not the one. and please, keep me updated okay~i wanna know all the details..hehe

To: MT
hmm, u r the hardest one. what can i say to u? did u know when i started to like u? guess what, it was during matriks. u would never have guessed that, right? never did i. and that 4 years was the longest i ever liked someone. i thought that u are the one, but it turned out that im not the one for u. u are the 2nd person that made me cried. ~sigh~ i've wasted all my 4 years for nothing. nevrmind. as long as u r happy. and please, act like usual okay..im so over you! we're frens anyway. so, now or later, we're gonna meet each other any other way..=)

To: MBB (bkn name sebenar)
haha..this one, i can't say anything. but, ur presence really cheer up my day... did u know that i had a crush on you? wish to see you one day..face to face okay!

To: AF
FYI, u are the 3rd person to make me cry..haha! you came right at the moment when i needed someone to talk to, you made me smile..again. i didnt know myself when i started to fall for you..but i did. when u said no, it was like all my spirit was taken away from me. but, i love you as my fren, so, i can't stand the thought of losing you as a fren...so be it. dont worry about me, because i am me once more. just dont stop being my friend.

anyhow, each one of you thought me different things. even things might have ended badly for us, i still wished happiness to all of you..it was just that i never had the chance to say sorry. but, guessed what? some of you have found your love and happily married, so that's a good ending actually. look at the bright side. just pretend that i'm a cupid, person that u have to meet to find your love. as for me, im good as where i am..i have my girls~! they are the BEST~


Love,
Aimi.