*happy*

salam...

happy...tu je la.. haha

lalalala~

YOU!

i know YOU stalked this ...
beware of the truth that you'll regret for the rest of your life...

wished you were here...~

salam...

as the title implies, i might as well missing someone...
but the strangest thing is, i miss my friend..
i miss talking (aka chatting) with him about ridiculous thing,
nonsense, talked about the world today,
bitching about some guy named "jimie" or a girl with a fashion of
"baru lepas mandi"...
weird~
the fact is, i never feel this way before....missing a missing friend...
maybe because they never were..
but, this time its different...
it's not like i like him or what...i just miss him. that's all.
maybe because we are "sekepala"...
we can talk about music for the whole night,
or just rumbling nonsense...
sigh.
i always tried not to attached myself with anyone too much,
but i guess he's got quite an influence on me..
sometimes, i wished that he's a girl..
so that i wont feel left out when the time comes, when you have to embrace your life...getting married and all..
because a guy and a girl cannot be bestfriend without involving jealousy~

arghh....i wished you were here...

update blog secara bundle~

salam...

waa...lamenye x update blog ni...
sebab nye, xde pape yang menarik utk dikongsi...so, senyap je la..

okay, recently , i made fren with a very interesting guy.. he's so complex.
and he's got dual personality.. (really). but, being fren with him makes me forget about my problems, either work problems or personal one...
really enjoyed chatting with him, it was like i can talk about almost anything with him, and even though kami baru je jd kawan, mcm dah bertahun2 kawan... frenship is beautiful, i guess... haha

but, dont misunderstood this entry....i like him as a fren only OK~
he is the best guy-fren i've ever met...hope we can be fren .. forever? haha... i know u akan gelak kalo bace ni...er, u ade bace ke? erk..~

the reunion

well, it is not the reunion of the old classmates or what so ever, but, more likely a reunion between me and my ex"teman-tapi-mesra" from school times..haha
it has been about 11 years (according to him la..) we haven't contacted each other..
and if you wonder where did i found him, well, that's the power of facebook..haha again.
and, i must say, he changed a a a lot. the last time i saw him, he is still the kurus boy that likes to listen to butterfingers...now, he seems more 'berisi' and a lot wiser i must say...and more kemas also..~grin~
so, if you wonder why the heck did i wrote this entry, i just want to share my happy feelings..thats all..=))

so, here's the feeling:

Awak,
Tau tak saya sangat gembira?
Dapat Jumpa awak balik?

Dulu mungkin banyak isu antara kita,
Tapi itu dulu,
zaman kita belum matang lagi.

Saya harap,
Persahabatan ini akan kekal,
Sebab awaklah lelaki pertama ,
yang saya pernah suka..
haha.

when u're gone...

yesterday...
might be the saddest day of all,
took me almost a night to realize that...
when morning comes,
tears starts flowing like it would never stop...

you are gone...
leaving all of us,
not prepared and unexpected..
still hoping that is was just a really bad dream..

now,
i can't see you anymore..
it hurts..just to think about it..
you are someone to us..
our significant other.

our time together,
i will always remember,
till the day that i will follow you..
wish i can say 'i love you' thousand times..
but,
you already gone.

we miss you..
so much until we die...
someday.

missing the gud ol' days...

hi there..
it's been more than a month since the last i updated my bloggy...well, has been buzy-ing myself with work and so many other things..haha

for this past few weeks, i have been feeling empty and kind of 'static' (if u know what i mean..) and after this morning workshop, i realized how much i enjoyed clinical pharmacy, although during university days, CP was one of the subjects that i care the least.. somehow, i manage to feel alive, listening to clinical pharmacy stuff..huhu... wonder when will i be able to enjoy my work..

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okay, that was updating-the-blog-part I..now here's part II..
why is it so hard to move on and leave the past behind? why do we still want to hold onto something that we know won't be ours? maybe that was human nature..always want to look back and once we look back, there will be things that we feel was left behind..and so, we go back..

move on,
dream on,
let it be gone,
you are not alone...

stay on,
hope on,
all done,
think beyond...

move and stay,
survived everyday,
when everything is grey,
step on it you may....