yesterday...
might be the saddest day of all,
took me almost a night to realize that...
when morning comes,
tears starts flowing like it would never stop...
you are gone...
leaving all of us,
not prepared and unexpected..
still hoping that is was just a really bad dream..
now,
i can't see you anymore..
it hurts..just to think about it..
you are someone to us..
our significant other.
our time together,
i will always remember,
till the day that i will follow you..
wish i can say 'i love you' thousand times..
but,
you already gone.
we miss you..
so much until we die...
someday.
Friday, April 02, 2010
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
missing the gud ol' days...
hi there..
it's been more than a month since the last i updated my bloggy...well, has been buzy-ing myself with work and so many other things..haha
for this past few weeks, i have been feeling empty and kind of 'static' (if u know what i mean..) and after this morning workshop, i realized how much i enjoyed clinical pharmacy, although during university days, CP was one of the subjects that i care the least.. somehow, i manage to feel alive, listening to clinical pharmacy stuff..huhu... wonder when will i be able to enjoy my work..
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okay, that was updating-the-blog-part I..now here's part II..
why is it so hard to move on and leave the past behind? why do we still want to hold onto something that we know won't be ours? maybe that was human nature..always want to look back and once we look back, there will be things that we feel was left behind..and so, we go back..
move on,
dream on,
let it be gone,
you are not alone...
stay on,
hope on,
all done,
think beyond...
move and stay,
survived everyday,
when everything is grey,
step on it you may....
it's been more than a month since the last i updated my bloggy...well, has been buzy-ing myself with work and so many other things..haha
for this past few weeks, i have been feeling empty and kind of 'static' (if u know what i mean..) and after this morning workshop, i realized how much i enjoyed clinical pharmacy, although during university days, CP was one of the subjects that i care the least.. somehow, i manage to feel alive, listening to clinical pharmacy stuff..huhu... wonder when will i be able to enjoy my work..
.......................................................................................
okay, that was updating-the-blog-part I..now here's part II..
why is it so hard to move on and leave the past behind? why do we still want to hold onto something that we know won't be ours? maybe that was human nature..always want to look back and once we look back, there will be things that we feel was left behind..and so, we go back..
move on,
dream on,
let it be gone,
you are not alone...
stay on,
hope on,
all done,
think beyond...
move and stay,
survived everyday,
when everything is grey,
step on it you may....
Saturday, February 20, 2010
open letter
okay..this is not a letter to our PM or yang sewaktu dengannye...
rather it is a letter that i would never will have had the opportunity to send it...
so, this is from my heart..a letter to all the guys that i've encountered throughout my life (up until this moment)..
so, where to start? i'll start from when i was 15..erm, that was 11 years ago..(time do flies~sigh~)
To: WMZ
okay..you are my 1st "cinta monyet"..haha! From you, i learned about so many new different things.. U r the 1st one that introduced me to Korn, Rage against the machine ~life is peachy~, karachi, etc..and how u called urself emmet...and believe it or not, i still remember ur bday..3 November..but, because of u also, i became a commitment-phobic person..it took me 4 years to overcome that...by da way, where r u now? hidup lg ke? and, how why you gave me that song --> nothing else matter by metallica...
To: FF
hmm, frens called u P. it was during SPM exam, when u 1st gave me a love letter..(on that kertas kajang yang ada tulis sulit)..never thought that u liked me..and did u know, ur bestfren once called me, just to tell how much u liked me? im so sorry, the truth is, i did liked you too, but at that time, i was so afraid to be in any relationship...so i said no. But, i know u r happy now..so, im happy too. er, did u have facebook acc? add me..=)
To: MRE & NN
MRE, i think of you highly, so when i know that u liked me, it was hard to accept. remember when you came to meet me during SPM exam, in front of Aspuri, that was the most awkward moment..but then, when u try to set me up with NN, i am so damn angry..not because i didn't like him, but because of ur lies. Liar -that was type of person that i despise the most..so, NN, i ignore you because im angry with ur fren, not because i am so sombong to meet you..sorry. but, both of u are fine and happy now, so i'm happy too. this is the time when i realize that i have a strong instinct..
To: AAZ
from all the guys that came into my life, u r the one that i feel so sorry the most. sy sgt bersalah kpd awk. sorry that i gave u hope and take it back in such a short time...so sorry. u have every right to hate me..but please dont. seeing that you have found the love of ur life, i think that what fate is..right? can u pray for my happiness also?
To: H
ur determination always amazed me. when did u start liking me? i never realized. do not ask me why i said no. 3 times. i dont have the answer. i thank u because u never stopped being my fren. even now, im so grateful that u came to me with those questions..thanks! and u know what, someone once made me cried, saying that i didnt accept u because of ur appearence. u know that wasn't the case. u r just not the one. and please, keep me updated okay~i wanna know all the details..hehe
To: MT
hmm, u r the hardest one. what can i say to u? did u know when i started to like u? guess what, it was during matriks. u would never have guessed that, right? never did i. and that 4 years was the longest i ever liked someone. i thought that u are the one, but it turned out that im not the one for u. u are the 2nd person that made me cried. ~sigh~ i've wasted all my 4 years for nothing. nevrmind. as long as u r happy. and please, act like usual okay..im so over you! we're frens anyway. so, now or later, we're gonna meet each other any other way..=)
To: MBB (bkn name sebenar)
haha..this one, i can't say anything. but, ur presence really cheer up my day... did u know that i had a crush on you? wish to see you one day..face to face okay!
To: AF
FYI, u are the 3rd person to make me cry..haha! you came right at the moment when i needed someone to talk to, you made me smile..again. i didnt know myself when i started to fall for you..but i did. when u said no, it was like all my spirit was taken away from me. but, i love you as my fren, so, i can't stand the thought of losing you as a fren...so be it. dont worry about me, because i am me once more. just dont stop being my friend.
anyhow, each one of you thought me different things. even things might have ended badly for us, i still wished happiness to all of you..it was just that i never had the chance to say sorry. but, guessed what? some of you have found your love and happily married, so that's a good ending actually. look at the bright side. just pretend that i'm a cupid, person that u have to meet to find your love. as for me, im good as where i am..i have my girls~! they are the BEST~
Love,
Aimi.
rather it is a letter that i would never will have had the opportunity to send it...
so, this is from my heart..a letter to all the guys that i've encountered throughout my life (up until this moment)..
so, where to start? i'll start from when i was 15..erm, that was 11 years ago..(time do flies~sigh~)
To: WMZ
okay..you are my 1st "cinta monyet"..haha! From you, i learned about so many new different things.. U r the 1st one that introduced me to Korn, Rage against the machine ~life is peachy~, karachi, etc..and how u called urself emmet...and believe it or not, i still remember ur bday..3 November..but, because of u also, i became a commitment-phobic person..it took me 4 years to overcome that...by da way, where r u now? hidup lg ke? and, how why you gave me that song --> nothing else matter by metallica...
To: FF
hmm, frens called u P. it was during SPM exam, when u 1st gave me a love letter..(on that kertas kajang yang ada tulis sulit)..never thought that u liked me..and did u know, ur bestfren once called me, just to tell how much u liked me? im so sorry, the truth is, i did liked you too, but at that time, i was so afraid to be in any relationship...so i said no. But, i know u r happy now..so, im happy too. er, did u have facebook acc? add me..=)
To: MRE & NN
MRE, i think of you highly, so when i know that u liked me, it was hard to accept. remember when you came to meet me during SPM exam, in front of Aspuri, that was the most awkward moment..but then, when u try to set me up with NN, i am so damn angry..not because i didn't like him, but because of ur lies. Liar -that was type of person that i despise the most..so, NN, i ignore you because im angry with ur fren, not because i am so sombong to meet you..sorry. but, both of u are fine and happy now, so i'm happy too. this is the time when i realize that i have a strong instinct..
To: AAZ
from all the guys that came into my life, u r the one that i feel so sorry the most. sy sgt bersalah kpd awk. sorry that i gave u hope and take it back in such a short time...so sorry. u have every right to hate me..but please dont. seeing that you have found the love of ur life, i think that what fate is..right? can u pray for my happiness also?
To: H
ur determination always amazed me. when did u start liking me? i never realized. do not ask me why i said no. 3 times. i dont have the answer. i thank u because u never stopped being my fren. even now, im so grateful that u came to me with those questions..thanks! and u know what, someone once made me cried, saying that i didnt accept u because of ur appearence. u know that wasn't the case. u r just not the one. and please, keep me updated okay~i wanna know all the details..hehe
To: MT
hmm, u r the hardest one. what can i say to u? did u know when i started to like u? guess what, it was during matriks. u would never have guessed that, right? never did i. and that 4 years was the longest i ever liked someone. i thought that u are the one, but it turned out that im not the one for u. u are the 2nd person that made me cried. ~sigh~ i've wasted all my 4 years for nothing. nevrmind. as long as u r happy. and please, act like usual okay..im so over you! we're frens anyway. so, now or later, we're gonna meet each other any other way..=)
To: MBB (bkn name sebenar)
haha..this one, i can't say anything. but, ur presence really cheer up my day... did u know that i had a crush on you? wish to see you one day..face to face okay!
To: AF
FYI, u are the 3rd person to make me cry..haha! you came right at the moment when i needed someone to talk to, you made me smile..again. i didnt know myself when i started to fall for you..but i did. when u said no, it was like all my spirit was taken away from me. but, i love you as my fren, so, i can't stand the thought of losing you as a fren...so be it. dont worry about me, because i am me once more. just dont stop being my friend.
anyhow, each one of you thought me different things. even things might have ended badly for us, i still wished happiness to all of you..it was just that i never had the chance to say sorry. but, guessed what? some of you have found your love and happily married, so that's a good ending actually. look at the bright side. just pretend that i'm a cupid, person that u have to meet to find your love. as for me, im good as where i am..i have my girls~! they are the BEST~
Love,
Aimi.
Saturday, February 13, 2010
unwind...
salam.
bila tangan mula menulis (menaip) bermakna akal dan minda mula berfikir jauh..huh. i can't understand why its happening again.. if berlaku jugak untuk kali ke-3, i don't know if i can take it anymore..:( to all guys out there, do not treat a girl like she's someone to you and when she finally falling for you, u said that she's just a fren..well, a fren doesn't involve everyday-text-messaging...dont say that guys are just like that, becoz i had a few best-guy-fren, and they dont treat girls more than a fren should. guess it was just my beautiful nightmare..wished that i could wake up the next morning and realize that im just having a bad dream..but that dream never go away. his presence is so prominent to me. what shud i do? i know, ppl n frens will say, "get over it, just move on". but how could i move on? he's like a drug to me.. without him, im having this withdrawal syndrome...or should i just enroll myself into a rehab? is there one for broken heart? ~sigh~
bila tangan mula menulis (menaip) bermakna akal dan minda mula berfikir jauh..huh. i can't understand why its happening again.. if berlaku jugak untuk kali ke-3, i don't know if i can take it anymore..:( to all guys out there, do not treat a girl like she's someone to you and when she finally falling for you, u said that she's just a fren..well, a fren doesn't involve everyday-text-messaging...dont say that guys are just like that, becoz i had a few best-guy-fren, and they dont treat girls more than a fren should. guess it was just my beautiful nightmare..wished that i could wake up the next morning and realize that im just having a bad dream..but that dream never go away. his presence is so prominent to me. what shud i do? i know, ppl n frens will say, "get over it, just move on". but how could i move on? he's like a drug to me.. without him, im having this withdrawal syndrome...or should i just enroll myself into a rehab? is there one for broken heart? ~sigh~
Sunday, February 07, 2010
stormy heart...
salam.
hmm, i'm here. means--> something happens today. still can't believe that i repeat the same mistake for the 2nd time, only with other person..
all this while, i've been fooling myself believing in that person's heart.. and here i am, broken hearted.
hope that i can still believe in love..in the mean time, am certainly not.
hmm, i'm here. means--> something happens today. still can't believe that i repeat the same mistake for the 2nd time, only with other person..
all this while, i've been fooling myself believing in that person's heart.. and here i am, broken hearted.
hope that i can still believe in love..in the mean time, am certainly not.
Saturday, January 09, 2010
mood semasa: xtau nak describe...
Salam..
dis is the 3rd post in Jan2010..agak janggal la bg aku sbnrnye..xbiase update blog sekerap ni..haha! but, i feel like writing.
Somehow,i got this mixed feeling. Contributors: Work, Fren, Family and a guy.
Wished that i got to do things that i LOVE to do..like computer design..dah lame x buat video, buat design kad, buat slideshow, n ape2 yg berkaitan ngan design.. gosh, i missed all that. Sometimes, u only realize that something is so important to you while u are in the middle of something else..and u can do nothing about it..same here.
Sometimes, i missed my uni days..my exams..the classes..classmates..all the laughing and bickering..the boring lectures, the not-so-sedap makanan cafe, my compartment, kemaman kopitiam, zuzana, volley, netball..so many things that we take for granted.
And now, really really missed my prp days..the ward rounds especially. Never realize that i love doing that rounds..feels like im missing a great experience. but, nevermind, i'll be back..
if possible, nak je amik 2nd degree, just this time amik course yang minat..
funny isn't it? wanting to go back to yesterday..
hang in there, aimi..someday it will be your turn..
dis is the 3rd post in Jan2010..agak janggal la bg aku sbnrnye..xbiase update blog sekerap ni..haha! but, i feel like writing.
Somehow,i got this mixed feeling. Contributors: Work, Fren, Family and a guy.
Wished that i got to do things that i LOVE to do..like computer design..dah lame x buat video, buat design kad, buat slideshow, n ape2 yg berkaitan ngan design.. gosh, i missed all that. Sometimes, u only realize that something is so important to you while u are in the middle of something else..and u can do nothing about it..same here.
Sometimes, i missed my uni days..my exams..the classes..classmates..all the laughing and bickering..the boring lectures, the not-so-sedap makanan cafe, my compartment, kemaman kopitiam, zuzana, volley, netball..so many things that we take for granted.
And now, really really missed my prp days..the ward rounds especially. Never realize that i love doing that rounds..feels like im missing a great experience. but, nevermind, i'll be back..
if possible, nak je amik 2nd degree, just this time amik course yang minat..
funny isn't it? wanting to go back to yesterday..
hang in there, aimi..someday it will be your turn..
Sunday, January 03, 2010
The 26th..
Salam..
in just 2 hours, i'll turn 26th.. born on 4th January 1984, @ 2.50 pm..huhu!
xsangka, cepatnye mase berlalu..rase cm baru je masuk 24 tahun..haha~perasan betol..
hope to be more matured, tak nak emo2 lg.. kurangkan stress, try to be happy everyday..
focus bile dah masuk umo 26 ialah...enjoy single life selagi boleh..heehee~~
nak beri tumpuan untuk hobi2 ku..amik gamba, komputer, tgk cite korea, facebook, bace buku cite..bla..bla...
nak jadi seseorang dlm hidup seseorang...
harap2 bile turn 27 nanti, ada la perubahan dlm idup..jd makin kaya ke.. makin cantik ke..haha~
apa2pon, gud luck to myself, gambatte ne..chaoyok2!! aja-aja!
in just 2 hours, i'll turn 26th.. born on 4th January 1984, @ 2.50 pm..huhu!
xsangka, cepatnye mase berlalu..rase cm baru je masuk 24 tahun..haha~perasan betol..
hope to be more matured, tak nak emo2 lg.. kurangkan stress, try to be happy everyday..
focus bile dah masuk umo 26 ialah...enjoy single life selagi boleh..heehee~~
nak beri tumpuan untuk hobi2 ku..amik gamba, komputer, tgk cite korea, facebook, bace buku cite..bla..bla...
nak jadi seseorang dlm hidup seseorang...
harap2 bile turn 27 nanti, ada la perubahan dlm idup..jd makin kaya ke.. makin cantik ke..haha~
apa2pon, gud luck to myself, gambatte ne..chaoyok2!! aja-aja!
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