Tahun baru..1431H

Salam.

Selamat Tahun Baru Hijrah to all muslims out there...

Let us pray for our great future..may Allah make this coming year a blessed one.. May all of our wishes come true...

As for me, i hope that new year will bring me more happiness...no more tears (hurtful tears)...more money (i hope..~teehee~)...and a guy who will love me always, no matter who i am, and accept me for who i am..Amin...

Maal Hijrah tanda permulaan,
Tahun mendatang penuh pengharapan,
Semoga Allah tunjukkan jalan,
Biar ke mana tetap pendirian,
Walau apapun menjadi halangan,
Tetap teguh tak akan bergoyang Iman....

Aimi- 1 Muharram 1431H, 7pm

If Love like this..

Mode: Poetic

If..
Love like this,
always in peace,
always be his,
love like this, it is?

If,
Love like that,
always in bad,
always be mad,
love like this, is that?

Love,
Always like this and that,
some peace and bad,
never know when we'll be mad..
but, it'll always be there..
Love like this.

Man,
You better love like this..
or i'll never gonna say yes..
and i'll be the one you always miss..
so, love me like this,
and always be there...

If love is just like this...
My heart will always beating with his..

kegilaan yang teRbaru...

Salam..

Buat pertama kali dalam 3-4 bulan ni, fikiran dan otak aku tak berpikir pasal keje... semuanye disebabkan excited dengan satu minat aku yg dah lame ada sebenarnye, tapi baru je nak direalisasikan...photography.

Dalam pertimbangan dan tgh stdy camera dslr mane yang nak dibeli..dah ada 2 model dalam kepala otak aku ni, tapi selagi x pegang, xdapat vibe yang diperlukan... hehe!

and...x tau nak tulis ape lg.. tapi actually, i think i might be falling for...'him'.

It's coming to an end..2009

December is here..and it means something..2009 hampir berakhir..

i hope, 2010 will..

- bring me more luckss..i desperately need it
- be a better year for me..
- turn me into a better person,
- maybe, lead me to my 'jodoh'..=)

2009 banyak mendewasakan aku.. mengajar aku bagaimana menangani krisis dalaman diri aku.. mengajar aku mendepani masalah aku.. tapi banyak jugak perkara yang mematahkan semangat aku.. i think i became a pesimist, instead of optimistic person that i used to be..

well, there's not a year that is enough for us.. so, lets hope for a better future..

Lelaki oh lelaki...

Salam.

That title, it's weird, is it? Haha...lately, me having difficulty understanding man.. or men.. Orang kate perempuan ni kompleks pemikirannye, tapi yang sebetulnye, lelaki lagi kompleks. perempuan kita boleh teka their next step, but, man... selalu tekaan kita (perempuan) salah..

How to know if a guy is really interested in a girl? Ataupun just suka.. suka as a fren, maybe a little bit more than a fren, but, how to determine if a guy really likes a girl that he is willing to throw everything just to be with her? Susah nak tau kan?

Once, i asked a guy how much he liked me, but, he cannot answer me... is that mean he just 'like' me, but he doesn't love me? complicated isnt it? atau lelaki mmg jenis yg tak tau perasaan sndiri? how u want to make a girl to like you, if you (lelaki itu) yourself, doesn't even know how much u like her? be a man...if not a gentleman..

Maybe it is true that men are from mars...(=alien?) haha...they speak a language that us girls don't understand..mulut lelaki letaknye di hati...so, nak tunggu mulut dorang cakap ape yg terbuku di hati, mmg payah ah.. agaknye bile hati tu dah bernanah baru la keluar semua...parah2..

Mode: Poetic

Kau yang ku panggil teman..

Suatu masa dulu,
Kita adalah kawan,teman dan sahabat,
Kau Kawan dalam pelajaran,
Kau teman meluahkan perasaan,
Kau sahabat yang sentiasa di sisi,
Kaulah yang ku panggil teman.

Tapi sahabatku,
Benarkah apa yang kau kata?
Bahawa aku bukan sekadar teman bagimu,
Bahawa perasaanmu bukan setakat kawan,
Keliru aku.

Teman,
Berikan aku ruang dan masa,
Menilai erti perasaan ini,
Aku takut dirimu jua,
tersilap menafsir hatimu,
biarkan masa menentukan segalanya...
Ku yakin pada mu, teman.

Andai,
Tersurat di azali,
Kita bukan sekadar teman,
Terimalah aku seadanya,
sepertimana kau menerimaku,
sebagai sahabatmu...


13/11/2009 - Aku yang kau panggil teman.

the jOurNey continues...

Salam.

"macam mane tempat baru? ok ke?" . today, almost all ppl that i know ask me that question.~kebetulan hari ni ada cme kat Hosp~.. duh!? bila dorang tanye soalan tu, my expression kinda distorted.. and i give that boring-kinda-annoying look... please la.. ask other question bleh x? im tired of giving ppl the excuse of not being happy working at my new place. if i said ,"x best la.. nak balik hosp", they will definitely say, "ala..biasela tu..tpt baru. lama2 best la tu". seriously ppl, what do u know? only me and myself yg tau mcm mane rase keje kat tpt yg u don't even feel that u fit in there. like wearing other ppl's clothes. thats how i felt for the past 2 month. those who get their place of choice, they don't have the courtesy to comfort or konon-konon-empati ngan aku. and to make it worse, those who called themself myfren doesn't even bother to ask how im doing... not to be a snobby princess, but just calling and asking, "cmne keje skang? jom kita kuar..mkn2 ke..",that wud be enuf. just need a fren to let out my ketidakpuasan-perasaan ni. how wud u feel living (~yeah, working is like living, u spent 8 hours @work~) in a place without a fren around, ppl just barging into ur room asking for everything, works that seems to have no end to it, skipping lunch almost everyday bcoz u dont have anyone to lunched with, and etc... just imagine... this situation is stressing me out... afraid that i may develop some kind of depressive disorder... nauzubillah.. amin.

p/s: to that person that sent me out 'there', i thank you... thank you for making my life a living h**l...